I remember / je me souviens
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For those limbic bursts of nostalgia, invented by Proust, miniaturized by Nicholson Baker, and freeze-dried by Joe Brainard in his I remember and by Georges Perec in his Je me souviens.

But there are no fractions, the world is an integer
Like us, and like us it can neither stand wholly apart nor disappear.
When one is young it seems like a very strange and safe place,
But now that I have changed it feels merely odd, cold
And full of interest.
          --John Ashbery, "A Wave"

Sometimes I sense that to put real confidence in my memory I have to get to the end of all rememberings. That seems to say that I forego remembering. And now that strikes me as an accurate description of what it is to have confidence in one's memory.
          --Stanley Cavell, The Claim of Reason


Saturday, August 31, 2013
I remember feeling with my tongue for the grown-up tooth that would replace any baby tooth I lost.  Feeling for the new tooth's eruption from the gum, and the pleasure I took when my tongue could explore this new, impinging but somehow familiar surface in my mouth.


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Thursday, August 29, 2013

I remember Hai King, the Chinese restaurant in Hyderabad, and my mother's nostalgia about eating there as a child. The food was good, but didn't match up to how fond she was of it. But she loved it too much to be wrong, so I convinced myself to love it too.

I remember that American Chop Suey had a white sauce rather than the red of Chinese Chop Suey, and we only ever ordered the latter. But some restaurants swapped the two.

I remember eating the green chilies that came with Chicken 65 -- how flavorful and painfully hot they were, the temporary relief of drinking water, and starting over again.


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Monday, August 26, 2013
I remember being surprised that a ton weighed 2,000 pounds. I learned that from some word problem in an elementary school math book. Until then I thought I knew that a ton was a thousand pounds, which seemed a reasonable base-10 way to do weights and measures.


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Thursday, August 22, 2013
I remember the strange, oddly unpleasurable, experience of cutting the end off my dog Powell's flea and tick collar.  Somehow I could think of the collar as okay, not noxious, once it was around his neck and a collar.  But the dangling end had to be cut off and disposed of, because it was poisonous (as was its foil envelope), a piece of insecticide impregnated plastic, which contaminated the scissors that cut it, and jarred flea dust onto my clothes when the scissors finally snapped through.  The scissors had to be rinsed too, but where?  The kitchen sink seemed wrong, though they were kept in a closet off the kitchen; but the bathroom sinks, with their toothbrushes, seemed wronger.  All this did have a somewhat placating effect on the way I thought about the proper collar itself, though: just a part of the dog's outfit and not a strip of poison, so it was the short term discomfort that made it reasonably easy not to mind the collar on the dog (though I would try to keep him from sleeping in my bed for a day or so after he got a new one).


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Friday, August 16, 2013
I remember that on hikes when we chattered and nagged our mother she would shush us because, she said, she wanted to "commune with nature."


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Monday, August 12, 2013
I remember a small display of human fetuses in jars in the biology lab. It was fascinating, of course, as a window into creatures of an unseen world, a scientific curiosity that was really more about fantasy, much like dinosaur skeletons (which I didn't see until some years later). And it was morbid in a way that I sensed but didn't fully appreciate. And it was mysterious because -- where in the world did they come from? I vaguely knew about abortions and miscarriages, but it didn't seem possible that there were so many fetuses that every school in the country would have half a dozen. I remember thinking it strange that they weren't too expensive for our school to own. I asked my mother this and she was evasive but relatively nonchalant: they came from hospitals, and there were assuredly more than enough of them. I remember their color, light and translucent, and the size of the largest one, which wasn't very far along, but had, I think, ears and fingers. The jars immediately next to them held snakes. I remember noticing the display less each time I went into the lab.


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Monday, August 05, 2013
I remember buying books for the school year, and my mother and I spending an afternoon covering them with brown laminated paper on the floor of my room. I remember the fun of picking out sticker name labels for the books, the interest in which waned as I got older, but feeling that I had to hold on to it as a matter of tradition. I remember later covering my brother's books with him. I remember the excitement of looking through the textbooks, and staying up too late before the first day of school reading stories from the English texts.


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